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I want to have my new life!!!~:)

2010-12-11T21:24:00.000-08:00

Its been quite long time that i didn't update my blog.
After i have been here i just realise i need to change a new life of myself.
Now the only things i need to do is to aim my new life goals.
I hope i can forever stay at here so that i will feel young and happy always.
I need to change my old life without my mom and brother.
I hate them so much.
They made me lost the only chance to a new life.
They made my life wo miserable.
What i need now is FREEDOM!!!!!!
I want my life free of hate feeling.
I want to go on to let my dad feel happy.
This is the new life i WANT!!!!!~

What a terrible day i have

2010-11-17T18:52:00.000-08:00

Early in the morning,i thought it was 9am so i was frighten and jumped out of my bed
Then when i wake up i just know that now is only 6.40am
**ISH**
Then i double check my things for safe
After that i sms my friends to wake her up:)
Then i bring myself to the toilet and wash my hair and have a morning freezing bath:'~
Then i prepare everything and waited her to come fetch me to have some breakfast
So we decided to go bukoit baru to have breakfast
We order 2 nasi lemak and 1 asam fish
After i eat that fish,i feel that i got a little stomache pain
Then i stop eating that already
9.10 we start to rush to sentral to go Penang :D
In the bus,i feel so dizzy and fell like wanna voumite like this
Then at 5pm,i told the driver i wanna stop at Juru Tol
But the driver didn't stop me but stop me at Bukit Kayu Hitam(alomost reach there)
Then i call my sister and told her everything about my trouble now
Then we try our best to do our own part
I try to ask people about the position i am now so that my sister could come fetch me
Luckily...Thanks GOD my sister found me...
Then she fecth us to Sunway to have Pizza as our dinner
We went there to shop for a while
After that we start to go back and take our bath
Then we start to play Monopoly...LOL
Finally i sleep at 3am in the morning
HAHAHAHAHA

饶恕！！

2010-10-17T10:07:00.000-07:00

饶恕。。。什么是饶恕呢？？
有个人在我家霸占了我地位
我事实上很狠他！！！
很狠他！！！狠狠他！！！
应该没人比我更恨他
我这个狠是发指于内心出来的
他一直在我家颠倒是非与不分轻重
可是错他也没完全错！！
应该说我妈妈该负起整个责任
有人说过[当局者迷旁观者清]我妈妈就是我们的旁观者难道他不会分吗？？！！
这就是这么多年以来的一个疑问！！
为什么亲生女儿都不如外甥女呢？？！！
我觉得我自己好悲哀啊
他从来没站在我立场想想！！
我爸爸当我如珠如宝，他就当我是如草来睬！！！
就是这样我怎么用饶恕这个字！！！
我真的活在恐惧感里面~我也不知道怎么办！！！

无话可说的一天

2010-10-17T09:19:00.000-07:00

不知道是为了什么心情会闷闷的！！
真的好想念姐姐哦~
如果有一天我真的不在的时候，他会不会回来看我最后一眼跟送我最后一程呢？？
我姐姐就是我的生命~他的命都不如我的
除了我爸爸以外，我比谁都紧张他！！
因为我怕有一天他比我早离开这世界
所以我有个预感我会比他早离开这里去找我爸爸
昨晚发了个恶梦！
我没次发的梦好像会实现似的可是我这次不想这梦实现！
虽然我天不怕地不怕，可是我怕我心中最爱的人离开的感觉！！
我爸爸离开了我们八年
可是我从头到尾从来没忘记过他，不管是性格或者是样子都没有
看到别人爸爸这么疼女儿我就觉得好幸福
可是我已经没这机会了
我还记得小的时候在所有人面前，我很喜欢对我爸爸撒娇
而我爸爸也很会满足我的任何要求！
这才叫做真真的幸福来至于家人的
我现在什么都不敢奢望了
只希望我姐姐能够会来看我~
好姐妹对我的好我永远都会记在心理的
我拥有三个好朋友，一个是我的好表姐而另一个是我真真的好朋友还有一个就是我的大恩人~
丽湘虽然脾气跟我一样很暴躁但是他对我的好不是一天两天能够数清楚的~
而另一个好姐妹就是我的好朋友alice
虽然我还不够了解他，但是他也很关心我，还常常支持我~
我非常感谢上帝赐了一个好友给我！
我也要谢谢我的大恩人！他是我的好友的妈妈~
他把我当成他女儿一样看待，对我的好与关心都不如我亲生妈妈
他常常肯听我讲心事！
我真的很开心他们对我的好！我也不知道我该怎么报答他们~

或许是上天赐给我的礼物吧！
不能拥有家人的爱可是能够拥有友情的爱~

一言难尽

2010-10-01T09:18:00.000-07:00

终于知道为什么当初这么笨和痛苦了
不应该给他们这么好的机会
所谓不听老人言，吃亏在眼前
我觉得我对他们非常的失望
还以为他们会珍惜我那知道他们只是利用我而已
等到你的利用价值都没有了，你就是一个可怜的泥娃娃
所以我绝对不可能把那以钱给他们的
在这么现实的世界当中我必须要对我自己好一点
否则别人就会踩着你不肯放你一条生路
我不可能心软听你们劝
你们都会为了自己而活难道我不会吗？？
所谓人不由己，天诛地灭
若你们还敢对我不仁不议，最多我们就一派两散！！！！！！

How is my KL life???

2010-06-21T08:07:00.000-07:00

WTF!!!!
Recently my family is talking about buying house at KL???
All my friends is at here and yet want me to shift to KL!!!
Although is not far from Malacca but cannot always back here.
So now i always dream of my life in Kl.
I know the life there is interesting because i have 2 aunts and a uncle at there.
But i dont know the road at there and how i wana drive at there.
The toll and highway at there is too many and make me suffer man!!!
So to all my family, can u please think twice??!!
Dont always think the house there cheap la!!!
Even u buy the house already, u can left it there la.
We can go there for holiday so that we no need to find hotel already ma!!
Then i can always go to KL with my friends for a long time la!!!!
(T^T)(T^T)(T^T)

Hope of vacation with somebody important to me!!

2010-06-20T10:49:00.000-07:00

Recently, i am thinking of wanna go holiday that are meaningful to me.
We had been a long time we never go holiday together.
If i had a chance i wish i could go to Australia with u to go and visit Nicholas.
The last trip i go with u were a century years ago!
After this year i maybe had no time to go holiday.
I am worried about that.
So this October u wanna go with me??
I can leave my family there and go with u because i miss u a lot!
I hope i could have many pictures of us to take it as a memory when we leave each other.
I heard that u wanna shift back to here and hope that is a truth so that i could have a partner.
I am so boring when i am alone unless i play with my niece and nephew through MSN.
End of this year i am going Singapore,u wanna follow me go there for a long holiday?
I MISS U A LOT!!!!

A New Beginning Of Joe-Anne

2010-06-19T10:43:00.000-07:00

It has been a few century that i did not update my blog(now only i realize it)
LOLX
But i will try to update my blog from nowadays because i have quit my job recently due to my unhealthy body:(
If u were me, u will like to have a very healthy body to do whatever things u wanna do.
As usual i will be admitted to hospital twice or once a year.
This is the most terrible things i had.
But maybe this year will be a bit different i guess.
Now already June i had nothing with my health.
Im so damn happy and hope i will maintain at this level.
LOLZ

~A Terrible Trip in KL With cousin~

2009-08-28T01:26:00.000-07:00

FIRST DAY AT KL,
On Monday night, around 7.30, i start my journey to KL...On my way to KL, i was very tired...So i did not talk much to my cousin but just sleeping in the bus...But my cousin keep on wake me up...So i half sleep and half wake up...Then we talk and talk and talk till we reach KL at 9.30pm...Then we go there and have our dinner...At10pm, we walked to the Putra LRT...But we couldn't find where is the Putra LRT...So i asked the people at there...When i got the information, i continue walking...Oh dear,FINALLY i found the LRT...So i bought the tickets to KL Sentral...Then we from KL Sentral want to go to Kepong Sentral...At 11.30, we arrive at Kepong Sentral...Then i called my aunt and we reach my aunt's house around 12...At my aunt's house, i feel really really tired...Then i take some rest and after that, i go and have a bath 1st...At 12.45, i straight away sleep and can't stand with the tiredness...In the midnight, i realize my cousin snatch away my bolster...hmph...so bad want girl...

SECOND DAY IN KL,
I wake up at 7am...But everybody haven't wake up...Then i sleep back... Suddenly my cousin wake me up at 8am...I was so tired and feel like don't want to wake up...But my cousin keep on disturb me and make me cannot sleep back...so sad...So i wake up at 8am and prepare myself to go out...Then suddenly my cousin told me that she don't to come back my aunt's house anymore because later after shopping sure got a lot of things to take and don't want to be so tired...Then we decided to go to the town and rent a hotel to stay...At 9pm we start to pack our thing and start to go to the town and find a hotel to put our stuff...Finally we found a hotel and them we put our things and have a rest a there...SHOPPING TIME comes already...We start shopping at 11am and we start our shopping destination from Times Square...The first step i enter there, i was so excited and happy...No need 30 mins, i already spend RM200 at there...I shop and shop and shop without seeing the price and straight away take the thing i want...But when i am so excited, my cousin says she no mood and wanna go other place...So i got no choice follow her go the place that she wanted to go...Then she bring me to Ho Ching Yuin...A wholesaler buy stock want place...The weather is so hot and yet she wants me to go there...She says she want buy some stocks to sell it on the internet...Then we shop and shop and shop...We were so tired and i look at the time and it was 6.30pm already...Then we gotta wait for taxi but there are no taxis...Then we walk to the front there and finally i found a taxi i we just straight away sit on it and back to hotel...Actually we decided to go to Sungai Wang and Petaling Street want...But we are too tired and couldn't go...I wanted to go to Sungai Wang to buy something for my best friend and go to Petaling street to buy some biscuits to give my family eat want...But we have no energy to go there anymore...Then we at the hotel doing all those stupid stuff…After that we go and have our dinner near there...After we have our dinner at mamak shop, we go straight away to Puduraya to get the tickets for us to go back to Melaka...Then we go to the counter to go and get the counter but the counter closed...Luckily there 2 counters for the same company...Then we go to counter 74 to buy the tickets...Then we go back to hotel to get some rest...Then my cousin says she want to arrange the stocks and meanwhile, i also arrange my own stock...Then at 12something, we go to bed...But in the midnight, my throat is so damn painful...Then i go the shop near the hotel there to buy mineral water and 100plus...after drink 100plus, i continue sleep...

THIRD DAY AT KL,
On the third day, we wake up at 7.15am...and by that time, we were late already...Then we hurry prepare ourself to Puduraya so that we wont miss the bus...by 8.10, we arrive Puduraya but i start headache because the environment at there is so dirty...There are plenty of buses and make me more headache...Then when 8.30am, the bus opens the door and we immediately to go in to the bus at have the air-cond...Then our journey back to Melaka have started...On the way back, i am still very tired and sleep during the whole journey...Then FINALLY we reach Melaka...Im sooooo happy....haha...I really had a terrible day at there because during the day in KL i have to carry so many heavy things...Its make my arms hurt...T__T...And that all for my KL journey when my family is not with me...Thats the end of my journey...^_^

~Im back to me again after i dissappeared^_^~

2009-08-21T08:32:00.000-07:00

Hi everybody!
Im back to me again...
Hehe
This few weeks was really sucks for me man...
Do you know why??
This is a sad thing for me!!!
I have been admitted in the hospital for 4days...T..T
I was admitted in the hospital on Thursday evening...
Before i was admitted, i was very OK...
After i finish my class at 12pm, i was on my way back home...
On my way back, i went to buy lunch for myself and ate it at home...
So 1pm,2pm,3pm there was nothing happen to me...
But around 4pm i feel my stomach was very pain and i thought it was a normal stomach pain...
So i ignore it and eat 2 tablets of medicine...
But the pain still no yet released but more and more pain...
By that time my 2 cousins come back and i wanted to ask Alfred to send to the hospital...
But he already left my house and go back...
I was so struggling the whole day and around 5.30pm or 6pm, my mum and aunt were back...
Oh dear!!!Finally...
So I immediately ask my aunt to bring me to the hospital...
When i was in the hospital, i thought i just need a simple check up for my stomach...
But the first doctor ask me lied down on the bed and call the Consultant of Gastroenterologist to come over and check the pain i am suffering...
So after 15mins, Dr.Chow, says i need to admit in the hospital for further checking like blood test, ultrasound, gastrocopy and finally the miscellaneous test...
After that the nurse bring me to the patient room to have a rest...
BUT, after 5mins, another nurse come to me and tell me 1 trouble thing that i don't like...
THAT IS...They broke the container that contain my blood...i thought they broke 1 but...THEY BROKE 2 OF THE CONTAINER!!!!
I was so @_@ and by that time i was so speechless and can't do anything and let them take again my blood...T..T
Then finally i got a good rest...
The first day at there i was so scared to stay alone...So the whole night a can't sleep at all...

So the second day at there, i still feel very suffering and i was not given any medicine except sodium chloride and glucose water was feed in...
At 8am, the doctor came and look at my condition but is still very painful so the doctor wants me to do ultrasound and gastrocopy...
After i come back from all the test that are needed, the doctors say i finally i can eat...
So at 2sumthng, i went to open my lunch box...
But u know what i found??

This is the food that i ate in the hospital for 4days...
After that i was nothing back and the doctor says i tomorrow may be discharge and go back...
But in the midnight, my stomach started to pain again till the next morning...
I totally can't sleep at all because the pain make me so suffering and struggling all the night...

Until the 3rd day, in the morning, the doctor came on time so i told the doctor my what happen the whole night...
Then, the doctor says I today cannot be discharge from the hospital and he will give me a medicine to eat and see how was it...
So the first time i eat the medicine it was nothing and make me more comfortable...
But after in the evening, after i ate the medicine again, i feel so dizzy and couldn't wake up...
So i try to tell the nurse and ask them to help me to get the doctor come...
But the doctor couldn't come but ask me to relax a bit...
So i listen to the doctor advices, sleep more and relax more...
As a result, i recovered a bit by a bit...
In this few days i was so boring at there...
So I sms a lot of friend but none of them reply me and company chat...
Luckily there was a TV in my room and i can watch it when i was bored...
Then the next day the doctor says i finally i can be discharge from the hospital...
I was so damn damn happy and immediately pack all my things and prepare to go back...
But i have to wait for a long time because of this discharge procedure are needed to do...
So when i got this good news, i sms my best friend...
But i was afraid nobody come and fetch me, so I sms her and ask her come and fetch me...
But the nurse told me that the hospital haven't claim from the insurance company and I can't go back first...
So I immediately sms my best friend and ask her no need to come and fetch me...
But she told me she almost reach the hospital already...
I feel so sorry to her...
Ask her come and ask her back with a stupid reasons...
SORRY!!!

~A Stupid Day That I Have~

2009-07-18T21:30:00.000-07:00

Saturday was a BORING DAY!!!I woke up at 7.30am...Prepare to go to my campus because every Saturday i got co-cu meeting...I go there for 2 hours...Then i back from my campus at 11.05am...So i called Alice's mum and ask her have she eaten her breakfast, if not we go eat 2gather...But she had already eaten her breakfast...Then i go back and do nothing and furthermore, i got no transport to go anywhere...Nothing to do at home so i did all the housework by myself...After i finish all my housework, i switched on my laptop and start to on9 again...So i go in to PPS and started to watch drama again...No more drama for me to watch again...Because all the new drama haven release yet...So no drama for me on that day and then i watch back the old drama...Its still the same...VERY BORING!!!I walked in and out from my room...Luckily nobody in my house...If not they will say i insane already...On this Saturday i pass all my time this way...OK!!!Its 5.30pm already...Its time for Pasar Malam already...So i went to the Pasar Malam by alone...Hmm...So lonely...Pityful meeeee...I walk and walk and walk...Soooooooo BORING!!!Suddenly i feel like drinking pearl milk tea...So i went to the pearl milk tea stall...But the person who selling pearl milk tea wasn't at there...Do you know where he went??He went to get the straws that he need to use it...So i am standing at there and waiting for the person to come back...But i haven't waited for him to come back, i went away...Do you know why i go away??Because while i waiting for the person to come back, i saw Alice's mum came...So Esther and her mum invited me to walk with her...Im so happy...Because finally im not so lonely...haha...When we finish walking, we went back to our own houses...So when it is 7.30pm, im ready to go to her house and find them...So at 7.40pm i arrive their house but suddenly they say just now buy want food spoiled already and wanna go and change...So i accompany them go change...So i went down and ask the workers / maybe the boss and finally they refund the money to us...haha...Then Alice's mum drive the car go round round a while and then only go back...Then after that at 8pm, we start our conversation again till 1pm...haha...Im so happy on that day because i can chat a lot on that day...haha

~bOnZiJoAnNe~

~The Stupid Security in DP~

2009-07-16T21:12:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, i went to OCBC bank at DP..But when i stop my car near DP..So i get down from the car..When i wanna walk to DP's walkway, one stupid malay guard at there shouting like insane people in Tanjung Rambutan..So i told him i wanna go OCBC a while only..But he at there shouted at me again..By that time i was very angry and i asked him to keep his idiot mout to SHUT!!!After that, i shifted my car and go away..At here i wanna tell anyone not to go to DP anymore because there got a lot of mad people..If u still wanna go, u must really BE AWARE OF THE SECURITY GUARD!!!

~A Bad Day~

2009-07-16T20:59:00.000-07:00

Today although i don't have to go to my campus, my mood is not really very good..I don't know why..Besides that i have no car to go lepak..So i sms my friend to come my house and accompany me, but she rejected me..But never mind la, she maybe busy or doing something else la..So i alone at house doing nothing except on9...Actually wanna go watch movie, but dunno wanna watch what movie also..So damn boring alone at house..I feel like going my secondary school, but i no car go out..Besides that now i damn hungry and my house don't have a food also except plenty of the RAMEN..Alone at house 1 feeling is really very bad..Nobody to talk to..Nobody to play to..SO DAMN BORING MAN!!!