Today is the day where mummy had left us for six months. Everyone around me no matter they were friend of mine, friend of mummy friend of our relatives or even relatives had been sending regards or asking how were my current life. For me that was a boring question where i do not know how to answer them as life still continue to go on and i had been forced to move forward. Even though I am tired and exhausted but I cannot changed the fact but to accept it.On the day my mum had left I pretty sure that I had lost my family and I had no one to rely on. Some people told me this way, "I know you are a strong person" and some people ask me question like this "How can you be this strong? How do you do it?". I do wish that I am not strong that I can lean and depend on other people. But to who? I really do not know and and to where to get the answers.I keep pray to God to provide my needs and strength so that i could keep myself stand still and wouldn't collapse. When the days passing I found it is difficult to do it. Who can I speak to? Who could be my listener? Who could I trust?My heart is tired and my soul is exhausted. I do wish God could take me home so that I could spent my days in Heaven. Is it possible? I do not have the answers...
